Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in Austin Liquori-Martin's LiveJournal:

Monday, July 4th, 2005
11:26 am	MISSIN MY GIRL.... AND EXTREMLY PISSED OFF OK first a happy but sad note. im really missin my girl. really really missin her. im stuck in alabama which sucks. i miss being pushed out of the bed then let back in only to be pushed out again minutes later. i miss the smell of her hair and sound of her breathing. i miss waking up to her every morning and the way it makes me fell to leave her to go to work. im really missin holding her in my arms and cuddling together. k now for the pissed part of the entry.... first off a certain person and they if their reading this know who they are need to grow a brain and get a F*@!ing clue, a book or something learn about the military and its branches before they open their stupid pie holes. for those of you out there (which isnt many im sure.) who dont know that the Air Force is a branch of the military it is, and TOP GUN is not a movie about Air Force pilots, it say on the case "NAVEL EXPERTS" also AIR FORCE PILOTS DONT TAKEOFF FROM NAVEL AIR CRAFT CARRIERS, and our AIR CRAFT DONT SAY NAVY ON THE TAIL FIN. also a pilot is only one job out of about 250+ jobs in the air force. so if your going to talk about something try to make sure you know what your talking about before you open your mouth. especially if you work for a form of media. im sure i could go on about the stupid false things this person has said but i dont have the time. OK that takes care of one person on my list. on to the next. ive been quite for far to long while people bad mouth me and say S*#% behind my back or dont have the balls to say it to my face, instead they say it to my girl and it hurts her to hear it . if you have a problem with me bring it to me, and say it to my face. i dont bite...much. everyone is allowed their own opinions even if there wrong. but what pisses me off is when you judge someone based on rumors and hear say instead of trying to get to know the person. cause its easier. for that there is no excuse. Amanda has defended our relationship by herself for to long cause everyone is afraid to talk to me. they didnt have any right to say the things that were said to her and i think them all cowards for not coming to me. now im sick of it and its to late. they should enjoy their peace while im in alabama cause when i get home the SHIT is going to stop, and ill do it with every ounce of military bearing and respect i have cause i will not lower myself to there level. ive been silent for to long and i wont be any more. Amanda and i our happy together and im done with people trying to ruin it for us. the sad thing is that the biggest offenders are members of the church we use to attend the so called christians. THE BIBLE SAYS WE'RE NOT TO JUDGE. im so mad right now its hard to type. so im going to stop. im going to end this on a good note. I love you so much hun and im sorry ive been silent and not spoken up, you shouldn't have had to hear those thing that were said and im sure they will stop once i get home, and ill do it the polite way not the way i would have done it six years ago. that part of me died and is going to stay dead. its time for people to develop a new opinion of me one way or another. i love you and miss you so much i cant wait to see you in three day, they wont go by soon enough. hugs and kisses Current Mood: angry Current Music: FLOOD by jars of clay (Comment on this)
Monday, June 20th, 2005
2:25 pm	STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSED OUT!!!!!!! OK so today is not a good day besides the fact that its monday, is it just me or do some people just become stupider on mondays. its like they wake up eat a big bowl of DUMB F@#!, get in their vehicles and drive to work not paying attention to what their doing, get to work and drink a big steamy cup of STUPID SH$% and think of ways to piss people off. oh and my favorite is the saying dont let it bother you. ok now that ive said that. i feel alot better. oops wait i forgot something, im really upset at a few people at my church right now, as christians i always thought we were suppose to give people a chance not judge them based on rumors, or hear say. but i guess i was wrong again, wouldn't be the first time probable wont be the last. also heres some advice dont date girls that look like a horse's ass and are 22 years old but have the mentality of a 2 year old. it will come back and bite you in the ass. ok so now for some happier stuff, ......................... oh im getting out of work and i get to go home and see my girl in like an hour. yup that about all the good stuff thats happened today. but seeing my girl is the best thing i could have happen and it will definitely brighten up my day, alot. I LOVE YOU HUN. so yes if anyone is wondering i really HATE mondays. They really suck. more to come. See you tonight HUN love you. Current Mood: pissed off (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
8:56 am	SAD, UPSET, AND HAPPY. There's a few things I need to get out, they have been haunting me for to long and maybe talking about them will help me out. first off I have to thank my girlfriend, she helped me so much last night that I will forever be grateful. There are not even words to describe how much she helped me. So thank you so much hun I love you. now on to some of my problems. This weekend has been really hard for me for many reason. In fact this month is just full of bad memories for me. The 17th was the four year mark of my grandfathers passing, he died alone in a hospital bed 30 min into Father's day in 2001. I was celebrating my graduation from high school while he was dieing. For that I will feel for ever guilty, that I was having a good time while the man whom I thought of as my father, more so then the thing that help bring me into this world, was suffering. I never got the chance to say good bye to the one man I looked up to most, and I wasn't there when he need someone. Thats been eating at me for four years. Then there's yesterday some of you may remember a terrible car accident 3 years ago where 3 high school girls died, seniors I was friends with them good friends with one. I was deployed for training and on my way home from Texas when that happened. So thats hard to loose friends at a young age like that, but i'm getting over it slowly. But the thing that is bothering me most and is tearing at my soul, is today... Father's Day. I tell you why. Two year ago I was engaged to someone who I thought made me happy, boy was I wrong. She and I decided after a lot of debate and planning to have a child. So on September 22, 2003 Isabella Leigh Liquori-Martin was conceived. The day after my birthday, fitting I thought. Then in November '03 I get a call form my EX telling me she aborting the pregnancy and I have to pay for half. I'm here to say there are few thing to here from someone that rip you apart then that. For anyone who things they know what i'm going through, let me stop you now and tell you, YOU DON'T, you have no clue the pain I went through. The military trains you for all kinds of situations, how to handle them and not loose control. But I had no control in this situation, and no amount of training could have helped. Now I consider myself to be a strong individual both physically and emotionally but this killed me I dropped to my knees and cried for days. I tried everything I could to convince her to keep our child. Her response was "I still want to be able to go out to clubs and parties, I can't do that with a child, or with a husband." I hate NY state for the fact that a man, father to be has absolutely no say in if his child lives or dies. So on the 17 of November I got to sit at work while my EX murdered my daughter, and for all those who don't consider it murder your wrong. Abortion is taking the life of another, a life that GOD created through you. So my most important job as a father to protect your child, I failed at!!! My daughter would have been two some time in the next few days, and I would have been celebrating Father's Day as a dad. But instead its just another day, a day that makes me very sad. For the fact that I lost my father, and my daughter. Now I know that god forgives if you ask for forgiveness, and I do. I ask for it everyday, but I truly hope that my daughter can forgives me as easily. I know that i will see her someday, and for now my grandfather is taking care of her for me. I live everyday to honor them. I know they're watching over me and protecting me. I'm at peace knowing that my daughter is in heaven with god and that she has my grandfather to look after her till i get there. For two years i've hated myself, until the love of my life came back and gave me a second chance. We are Happy and our relationship grows stronger everyday. she has a promise ring on her finger and soon the engagement ring will be there. I love you so much hun and i can't wait to see you and hold you close. Hugs and Kisses. ;) Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Every One I love is Dead, Type O Negitive (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 18th, 2005
1:38 pm	SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!! Who needs it!! ME ME ME!!! SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!! is overrated the less sleep you have the more interesting things seem. plus you see thing that are not there like pink elephants and evil garden gnomes. LOL i haven't made it to that point thou. went to the girlfriend's show last night, it was great i had a good time and cant wait till the next one, but we didn't get back till late and i had to be up early to go to work so i'm really tired. but it was worth it, and i've got plenty of caffeine pills.:) anyway her bro graduated today so congrats to him sry i could not be there. I'm sure it would have been a good time. Plus congrats go to Owen who also graduated today. Good luck you two. So i'm really looking forward to my vacation sort of. Just to get off this base!!! its driving me nuts, i haven't had my normal days off in six weeks and I really need a vacation, and i'm really missing my girl. i feel like there a part of me missing when ever we're apart. back to work more to come i'm sure. Love you Hun missing you a lot. Hugs and kisses. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
9:46 am	Zoooooooooooo so went to the zoo for the first time since i was like seven or eight. alot has changed, like i could see the animals without someone helping me up to the rail, and finding them was easier to. but this was the first time ive been to the zoo on a date. it was really fun and i definately do it again sometime. maybe make a day of it. bring a lunch thou the food there sucked. we saw lions, and tigers, but no bears oh well maybe next time. anyway back to work. see you tonight hun, sry you had a bad night last night. maybe tonight will be better. luv ya Current Mood: frustrated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 11th, 2005
12:54 pm	First Entry Today... was a day off but i'm working. :( which sucks cause its a nice day, but anyway. cant wait till 1600 cause in out of here, and at 1800 my girlfriend is out of work and we're going to the Jamesville beach Balloon Festival. So a little about my girlfriend and I we've known each other for 15 year dated once before...when i was to young and very dumb. ran into each other a couple months ago and she avoided me like the plague. The Sunday before Memorial day we ran into each other at church. ( FYI she desrcibed me a a puppy that was going to follow her around and she wouldn't be able to get rid of.) anyway we ended up spending the day together, and it was great. We caught up and Memorial day she came to see me in the parade, and we've been together every since and its been absolutely wonderful. I couldn't ask for a better girlfriend. She definitely completes me. yesterday we went to the mall and started looking at rings. which was fun, and we had a great time, in the last store anyway, the others were pushy and only interested in signing us up for credit cards. We found some really nice rings. Well got to go back to work. LOVE YOU HUN see you tonight. Current Mood: thankful (1 Comment |Comment on this)